Seventeen & Awesome .
Behind those smile, lies her tears .
Imma teenager and i tend to try new stuff , so don't judge me that easily
Aishah♥; Girlfriend♥; Amirah BFF♥;
/ Sunday, August 22, 2010 @ 8:35 PM
seeing me smiling everyday without fail , it was really hard for me to pretend .3 years of suffering makes me learn something , something that can be learn & put it into my studies life . didn't know how to settle things out till i found someone new , but instead of being happy with that someone , another someone take away my happiness . & now im stuck in the mood of sad , regret & many more . how am i supposed to control this knid of feelings ? how do humans forget someone that you really loved before ? how do you intend to do when you know that someone took away your happiness ? been trying to make things right by the other side wasn't happy . how long can this fake smile stuck on my face ? CAN ANYONE IN THIS WORLD HELP ME !!!!!???? ahhhhh , fuck . no modd to continue laaa , byee .
hey love , i will make a pledge saying that you will be erase of my mind forever . :( it is not easy , but don't worry the fake smile will always being put up on this face . so enjoy your life with your love ones & good luck for your big big exam . :) .
seeing me smiling everyday without fail , it was really hard for me to pretend .3 years of suffering makes me learn something , something that can be learn & put it into my studies life . didn't know how to settle things out till i found someone new , but instead of being happy with that someone , another someone take away my happiness . & now im stuck in the mood of sad , regret & many more . how am i supposed to control this knid of feelings ? how do humans forget someone that you really loved before ? how do you intend to do when you know that someone took away your happiness ? been trying to make things right by the other side wasn't happy . how long can this fake smile stuck on my face ? CAN ANYONE IN THIS WORLD HELP ME !!!!!???? ahhhhh , fuck . no modd to continue laaa , byee .
hey love , i will make a pledge saying that you will be erase of my mind forever . :( it is not easy , but don't worry the fake smile will always being put up on this face . so enjoy your life with your love ones & good luck for your big big exam . :) .
/ Saturday, August 21, 2010 @ 9:56 PM
hellloooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo ,. am still tired due to the night cycling that i had from yesterday to today till 6 AM . everyone really had fun sehy . i love the night cycling . hahah . the Jyians must report at school by 9.15 so that the teachers could take our attendance . after taking the attendance Mr Chung tell us what's going to be happened next & more details on where we are going . after telling he told us that we are being divided by 3 groups . the first group ; 3A2 & 3T2 . the second ; 3A1 & 3E1 , & the third group is 3A3 , 3A4 & 3T1 . after being distributed to our groups we board the bus & off to ECP , my group reached first so we get our helmets & choose our bike , hahah . while waiting for the outher two groups we took some pictures . after a few minutes we are off to ( this are the places in order that we went) Bedok Reservoir - Simpang Bedok - Tampines - Pasir Ris Park - Changi Village - Changi Airport - ECP . such a long journey that lasted till 6 AM , fuhh . it was tiring but it was really damn fun , some of our Jyians get injured badly . after getting our bikes back to the shop we took our bus back home , everyone in the bus looks tired damn , damn tired . everyone in the bus was sleeping while i was awaken by the vibration of my phone , haha . we reached school at about 7 + evryone quicly get down from the bus to get a public transport . i asked Hairi to send my home instead of going home by muself haha . pemalas siak aku . he asked me to texct him before reaching school thoght that when i reached school he was already infront school sekali he was not there tried to call he picked up then i told him i am already infront of school . he & Mus fetch me & brought me to pondok , then Mus start we his teka-teki laa crazy sia he , i was damn sleepy at that poin of time but the teka-teki he gave me was damn funny that make me laugh like hell at about 8+ Mus & Hairi send me home . get home bath , upload pictures at fb and i off to sleep wake up at about 5 PM , haha then off to my grandma house to breakfast . emmm & now am home waiting for my parents come back from JB . & tomorrow morning i have religious class & i haven't get enough sleep yet . :(
hey love , i know you use to be someone who is understanding , sensible , sweet but now i realise you changed into someone that is very mean . sad to know that you changed to the old that you use to story to me . :(
hellloooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo ,. am still tired due to the night cycling that i had from yesterday to today till 6 AM . everyone really had fun sehy . i love the night cycling . hahah . the Jyians must report at school by 9.15 so that the teachers could take our attendance . after taking the attendance Mr Chung tell us what's going to be happened next & more details on where we are going . after telling he told us that we are being divided by 3 groups . the first group ; 3A2 & 3T2 . the second ; 3A1 & 3E1 , & the third group is 3A3 , 3A4 & 3T1 . after being distributed to our groups we board the bus & off to ECP , my group reached first so we get our helmets & choose our bike , hahah . while waiting for the outher two groups we took some pictures . after a few minutes we are off to ( this are the places in order that we went) Bedok Reservoir - Simpang Bedok - Tampines - Pasir Ris Park - Changi Village - Changi Airport - ECP . such a long journey that lasted till 6 AM , fuhh . it was tiring but it was really damn fun , some of our Jyians get injured badly . after getting our bikes back to the shop we took our bus back home , everyone in the bus looks tired damn , damn tired . everyone in the bus was sleeping while i was awaken by the vibration of my phone , haha . we reached school at about 7 + evryone quicly get down from the bus to get a public transport . i asked Hairi to send my home instead of going home by muself haha . pemalas siak aku . he asked me to texct him before reaching school thoght that when i reached school he was already infront school sekali he was not there tried to call he picked up then i told him i am already infront of school . he & Mus fetch me & brought me to pondok , then Mus start we his teka-teki laa crazy sia he , i was damn sleepy at that poin of time but the teka-teki he gave me was damn funny that make me laugh like hell at about 8+ Mus & Hairi send me home . get home bath , upload pictures at fb and i off to sleep wake up at about 5 PM , haha then off to my grandma house to breakfast . emmm & now am home waiting for my parents come back from JB . & tomorrow morning i have religious class & i haven't get enough sleep yet . :(
hey love , i know you use to be someone who is understanding , sensible , sweet but now i realise you changed into someone that is very mean . sad to know that you changed to the old that you use to story to me . :(
/ Thursday, August 19, 2010 @ 7:41 PM
whadsupppppppppppppp ! haha . today day has been a very tiring but awesome day . hehe . didn't manage to get enough idk why ,wake up for sahur never eat , drink milk & i sleep , wake up at about 6.15 then shower , rush-rush then went out . i already get my CT result , wahhh hancurrr siaaaa . like what the hell is that . maths & physic one digit . my geo at least i passed ; 16/20 :). i haven't get back my MT , Chem & Eng . Monday there will be test on Social Studies , must study so that i can at least pass for my Combined Humanities . during the third english period Mr Dan Koh came into our class he took 1o minutes to greet us , and start to talk about respect whaa siaooo sia he , i was so fucked up with him , i was damn tired , damn sleepy & damn irritated with my eyes that is causing so much pain . haiyoooo . i also don't know what happened to my eyes . :( but i tried my best to stay awake . haha . after school finished i had an outing to Suntec City for the YOG Art Exhbition , wah the art there was really that nice , pictures is being uploaded in facebook , do see the drawings . :) after finish the excursion , got up the bus while playing with soe's i-Phone , i alomst fainted oh god , what had happened . luckily i hold on to a car , hemm . after sitting down , i thought it was normal laa , i continued playing the game , sekali my vision was blur & i felt like vomitted , close my eyes and tried to tahan , i cannot tahan i pass the phone back & sit back while my eyes is crying , its been long since i experiened this , fuhh . i took a bus home & lepas buker im okay :) .
hey love , i don't even know my own feelings whether im envy or jealous ? O.o
love ; i have always been looking ahead , but ahead of me all the worse feelings come , why , why ? :(
whadsupppppppppppppp ! haha . today day has been a very tiring but awesome day . hehe . didn't manage to get enough idk why ,wake up for sahur never eat , drink milk & i sleep , wake up at about 6.15 then shower , rush-rush then went out . i already get my CT result , wahhh hancurrr siaaaa . like what the hell is that . maths & physic one digit . my geo at least i passed ; 16/20 :). i haven't get back my MT , Chem & Eng . Monday there will be test on Social Studies , must study so that i can at least pass for my Combined Humanities . during the third english period Mr Dan Koh came into our class he took 1o minutes to greet us , and start to talk about respect whaa siaooo sia he , i was so fucked up with him , i was damn tired , damn sleepy & damn irritated with my eyes that is causing so much pain . haiyoooo . i also don't know what happened to my eyes . :( but i tried my best to stay awake . haha . after school finished i had an outing to Suntec City for the YOG Art Exhbition , wah the art there was really that nice , pictures is being uploaded in facebook , do see the drawings . :) after finish the excursion , got up the bus while playing with soe's i-Phone , i alomst fainted oh god , what had happened . luckily i hold on to a car , hemm . after sitting down , i thought it was normal laa , i continued playing the game , sekali my vision was blur & i felt like vomitted , close my eyes and tried to tahan , i cannot tahan i pass the phone back & sit back while my eyes is crying , its been long since i experiened this , fuhh . i took a bus home & lepas buker im okay :) .
hey love , i don't even know my own feelings whether im envy or jealous ? O.o
love ; i have always been looking ahead , but ahead of me all the worse feelings come , why , why ? :(
/ Wednesday, August 18, 2010 @ 8:25 PM
todayy school as usual , hahah . when home terus with girlfriend , didn't manage to talk to Aishah that long . i swear i miss her a lott . its okay Friday we meet up yer bestfriend . :)today during MT lesson i was so fuck-ed up with Hairi's attitude , sial laaaaa binget siaa aku . i even cried cause he was very irritating . but instead of crying i avoid him , haha . hemmmm , this question is stuck in my head , does age really matters in relationship i asked two person : A says this ; it does matter imagine if you are 20 & that other person is 80 , haha wah sioa . but when i tried to ask if the age of jarak is 5 years and below how ? he said , if like that okay . but B says this ; for him, no. if like, e.g i sec 1, you sec 4/ okay tu matters . hahah . 2 different people with 2 different thoughts , hemm . does this really answer my question , i don't know yet . been currently texting a guy who is 2 years below me since i went back home from school , i have been wondering why must i get this kind of life ? i & him don't really mind about age , what about others you know people love to spread rumours , haha like usual , this is what we called HUMAN BEINGS , okay im being lame . i don't know why , why this few days i felt something different . hemmm . just now Lui talk to me and Amalia about our common test why are the subjects we done so badly , haha . i use the reasons as YOG laaa cher , hahah . i don't know what the teaches will be deciding for all the YOG participants , haha . i tak sabar for this Friday night , NIGHT CYCLING people . ^^ tomorrow will be going to Suntec City for a Art Exbition , yeaaaaa . ^_^ .
hey love listen to this lyric; You’re the only one I wish I could forget
The only one I’d love enough to not forgive
And though you break my heart, you’re the only one
And though there are times when I hate you
Cause I can’t erase
The times that you hurt me
And put tears on my face
And even now while I hate you
It pains me to say
I know I’ll be there at the end of the day bye love :)
:broken hearted girl:
looking at the skies makes me realise that you have gone , far far away . :(
todayy school as usual , hahah . when home terus with girlfriend , didn't manage to talk to Aishah that long . i swear i miss her a lott . its okay Friday we meet up yer bestfriend . :)today during MT lesson i was so fuck-ed up with Hairi's attitude , sial laaaaa binget siaa aku . i even cried cause he was very irritating . but instead of crying i avoid him , haha . hemmmm , this question is stuck in my head , does age really matters in relationship i asked two person : A says this ; it does matter imagine if you are 20 & that other person is 80 , haha wah sioa . but when i tried to ask if the age of jarak is 5 years and below how ? he said , if like that okay . but B says this ; for him, no. if like, e.g i sec 1, you sec 4/ okay tu matters . hahah . 2 different people with 2 different thoughts , hemm . does this really answer my question , i don't know yet . been currently texting a guy who is 2 years below me since i went back home from school , i have been wondering why must i get this kind of life ? i & him don't really mind about age , what about others you know people love to spread rumours , haha like usual , this is what we called HUMAN BEINGS , okay im being lame . i don't know why , why this few days i felt something different . hemmm . just now Lui talk to me and Amalia about our common test why are the subjects we done so badly , haha . i use the reasons as YOG laaa cher , hahah . i don't know what the teaches will be deciding for all the YOG participants , haha . i tak sabar for this Friday night , NIGHT CYCLING people . ^^ tomorrow will be going to Suntec City for a Art Exbition , yeaaaaa . ^_^ .
hey love listen to this lyric; You’re the only one I wish I could forget
The only one I’d love enough to not forgive
And though you break my heart, you’re the only one
And though there are times when I hate you
Cause I can’t erase
The times that you hurt me
And put tears on my face
And even now while I hate you
It pains me to say
I know I’ll be there at the end of the day bye love :)
:broken hearted girl:
looking at the skies makes me realise that you have gone , far far away . :(
/ Tuesday, August 17, 2010 @ 7:41 PM
currently just finish breakfast , eat laksa sedapppppp siot . after eat , when solat Maghrib , hahah pray somehting to God & guess what God reply it back with a text messsage , i am so damn damn happy right now , hahah . today after school balik terus , cleaning-up my hamster's house sleeep till 6+ , now online , yeaaaa . hahahs . actually i didn't have the mood to update just short update will do , so i will not make my blog die , hahah , byeee peeps .
hey love ,even if i have someone replaced , i will always remember the memories we had together :)
currently just finish breakfast , eat laksa sedapppppp siot . after eat , when solat Maghrib , hahah pray somehting to God & guess what God reply it back with a text messsage , i am so damn damn happy right now , hahah . today after school balik terus , cleaning-up my hamster's house sleeep till 6+ , now online , yeaaaa . hahahs . actually i didn't have the mood to update just short update will do , so i will not make my blog die , hahah , byeee peeps .
hey love ,even if i have someone replaced , i will always remember the memories we had together :)
/ Friday, August 13, 2010 @ 8:49 PM
hahahahha , see the picture above kan ? let me tell a story , hemmm . the pictures was taken today . celebrate & bash Adam Mikhail in advanced today . semua tak puasa hahaha . bagus laa tuh . lucky im not fasting cause i have reasons , hahahah . adam bash me with cake , wahh thanks alot , lekit siow muka , hahahah . had a lot of fun just now , hahah with that shazwandi joking around , LOL . i didn't get to saty long so i stay up till 4+ and i walk home .
now the real story began ; Dear Dearest Adam Mikhail
tomorrow is a big big day for Adam Mikhail . tomorrow he's gonna be 16 . 16 years old more wider & more wiser , eh . heheh . and this year he's taking his big big national exam , N level . hemmm . good luck brother on that . i can only pray for you so that you can get good grades . . . knowing him for almost 2 years is really fun , yeah i know we have fought 2 times cause of somethings , but even though we fight i still care for you . when you said that you forgiven me during my birthday i was damn damn happy . seriously that was the first time i felt lost , not secure after losing him as a bestfriend . feel like crying , feel like dying . hahah nonsense . but seriously you can really feel the hurt when you felt that you lost someone that close to you , that you usually share things . hemmm . its a real life experienced for me . knowing that this has happened make me realise the important of having friend . but now , we are really realy in good terms , i still share things with him , i still tell him what i felt & we usually gossips about people (you know i know)heheh . yeah maybe he is not always there for me to lean on , but i know he is a really good friend .a good friend that always there to lend his ear to hear my problems & he will always try his best to solve it for me . sorry that i can't celebrate with you on your birthday cause as you know , i have that YOG opening ceromony kan , like wahhh , hahahah . is like we are dancing on your birthday siot , hahaha . birthday present gaknyer . LOL . Adam Mikhail , thanks for everything , even though you are not always there for me . i appreciate our friendship for almost 2 years .may our friendship lastlong . my last wish for you ,HAPPY SIXTEEN BIRTHDAY IN ADVANCED . may you are showered with happiness . smile always .& good luck for your N Level bestfriend , :D sayang kau .
hey love , even though i can't see , but i can feel . :)
hahahahha , see the picture above kan ? let me tell a story , hemmm . the pictures was taken today . celebrate & bash Adam Mikhail in advanced today . semua tak puasa hahaha . bagus laa tuh . lucky im not fasting cause i have reasons , hahahah . adam bash me with cake , wahh thanks alot , lekit siow muka , hahahah . had a lot of fun just now , hahah with that shazwandi joking around , LOL . i didn't get to saty long so i stay up till 4+ and i walk home .
now the real story began ; Dear Dearest Adam Mikhail
tomorrow is a big big day for Adam Mikhail . tomorrow he's gonna be 16 . 16 years old more wider & more wiser , eh . heheh . and this year he's taking his big big national exam , N level . hemmm . good luck brother on that . i can only pray for you so that you can get good grades . . . knowing him for almost 2 years is really fun , yeah i know we have fought 2 times cause of somethings , but even though we fight i still care for you . when you said that you forgiven me during my birthday i was damn damn happy . seriously that was the first time i felt lost , not secure after losing him as a bestfriend . feel like crying , feel like dying . hahah nonsense . but seriously you can really feel the hurt when you felt that you lost someone that close to you , that you usually share things . hemmm . its a real life experienced for me . knowing that this has happened make me realise the important of having friend . but now , we are really realy in good terms , i still share things with him , i still tell him what i felt & we usually gossips about people (you know i know)heheh . yeah maybe he is not always there for me to lean on , but i know he is a really good friend .a good friend that always there to lend his ear to hear my problems & he will always try his best to solve it for me . sorry that i can't celebrate with you on your birthday cause as you know , i have that YOG opening ceromony kan , like wahhh , hahahah . is like we are dancing on your birthday siot , hahaha . birthday present gaknyer . LOL . Adam Mikhail , thanks for everything , even though you are not always there for me . i appreciate our friendship for almost 2 years .may our friendship lastlong . my last wish for you ,HAPPY SIXTEEN BIRTHDAY IN ADVANCED . may you are showered with happiness . smile always .& good luck for your N Level bestfriend , :D sayang kau .
hey love , even though i can't see , but i can feel . :)
/ Tuesday, August 10, 2010 @ 9:00 PM
hello , wahhhhhhhh so the lama tak update , hahaha . been busy with YOG performance , rehersal eveything and will always be back by 12 at night and then tomorrow school . tired siaa . but enjoyable laa . had lots of fun with the rest . get to know more of each other characters . hahaha . i love Naresha , Nurren , Natasha & Norliyana , see the 4N , hahaha . they reallly make me happy laugh with them around i don't think of anything i only think of having fun with them . they really understand me alot . i love being around them .
its been long since we study & tomorrow is our second common test , good luck to the Sec 4 NA for their prelims especially Adam Mikhail . :) & to sec 1 - sec 3 good luck for your common test ecpecially 3A3 :) , i know we can prove to the teachers that A3 can do the test . sayanggg korang .♥
wahhh sioaaa eh , dah lama asik mahu makan jek kan now starting from tommorrow sudah puasa oiii . umat-umat Islam harus puasa yer , kalau tak , tak boleh raya , hahah okay fazliana lame .
heard that someone kena accident by car , wahh if i didn't see i wouldn't know . pity him , i also don't know how he kena . want to ask , but i know he wouldn't want to reply . for goodness sake , he even ignore me on facebook , what am i supposed to do ? i am still really missing him that much . i couldn't even conrtol myself of missing him . sometimes i cried think about the past we both been through . & i also cried because i tried to forget him but i can't deep deep inside my heart i stiil love him that much , but i know he has stop thinking of me kan syaifran ? :( , one of the reason i wouldn't want to contact you because i know you are still attached , am i right . correct me if im wrong . thinking of bringing you back in my life its a very impossible thing to do kan ? i will always be waiting for your number to appear in my ohone , that was only a dream that will never ever come true . if we were still to be together , this coming september its our 1 year , but it can't happened .
♥no matter how far you are , i am always searching for you .
hello , wahhhhhhhh so the lama tak update , hahaha . been busy with YOG performance , rehersal eveything and will always be back by 12 at night and then tomorrow school . tired siaa . but enjoyable laa . had lots of fun with the rest . get to know more of each other characters . hahaha . i love Naresha , Nurren , Natasha & Norliyana , see the 4N , hahaha . they reallly make me happy laugh with them around i don't think of anything i only think of having fun with them . they really understand me alot . i love being around them .
its been long since we study & tomorrow is our second common test , good luck to the Sec 4 NA for their prelims especially Adam Mikhail . :) & to sec 1 - sec 3 good luck for your common test ecpecially 3A3 :) , i know we can prove to the teachers that A3 can do the test . sayanggg korang .♥
wahhh sioaaa eh , dah lama asik mahu makan jek kan now starting from tommorrow sudah puasa oiii . umat-umat Islam harus puasa yer , kalau tak , tak boleh raya , hahah okay fazliana lame .
heard that someone kena accident by car , wahh if i didn't see i wouldn't know . pity him , i also don't know how he kena . want to ask , but i know he wouldn't want to reply . for goodness sake , he even ignore me on facebook , what am i supposed to do ? i am still really missing him that much . i couldn't even conrtol myself of missing him . sometimes i cried think about the past we both been through . & i also cried because i tried to forget him but i can't deep deep inside my heart i stiil love him that much , but i know he has stop thinking of me kan syaifran ? :( , one of the reason i wouldn't want to contact you because i know you are still attached , am i right . correct me if im wrong . thinking of bringing you back in my life its a very impossible thing to do kan ? i will always be waiting for your number to appear in my ohone , that was only a dream that will never ever come true . if we were still to be together , this coming september its our 1 year , but it can't happened .
♥no matter how far you are , i am always searching for you .
