Seventeen & Awesome .
Behind those smile, lies her tears .
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HAPPY 1 YEAR BABY ! / Tuesday, May 27, 2008 @ 8:17 PM
on the 23 May 2007 last year . someone has open my heart really carefully . he came into my life with full of happiness and laughter . he tells me what loves is all about . i know he was the want whom i really finding before the days come by . he opens my heart and make me wake up from dreaming. i'm really lucky to have you baby . i'm hoping that we can be forever . even though there will always have a problem , but we could find a way to settle it . baby promise me you wouldn't want to leave me . you will be there anywhere when i need you , when i cry , when i miss you . thanks a lot baby for all this . the memories that have left behind is always in my mind . thanks so much baby . i will love you always . and this year i'm sad tht we can't selebrate our 1 year because of the parents meeting session . bad luck sehy . but lucky i passed . now it's holiday . i'm damn bored at home . i wanna go out of this jail . please ! i'm sick and tired of just staying at home . heesh . but at least there's someone is by my side . actually i'm am so pity of you just standing . but at least you enjoy . you have free food from my house . hehe . thanks a lot for accompany me but you still need to be standing . i really appreciate it a lot . today i dye my hair something like redish and brownish colour .wah colour so nice but too bad before open school i must colour it black back . all thanks to my hunney-bunny ku for dying my hair . hehe . I LOVE YOU HUNNEY-BUNNY KU !! =)
on the 23 May 2007 last year . someone has open my heart really carefully . he came into my life with full of happiness and laughter . he tells me what loves is all about . i know he was the want whom i really finding before the days come by . he opens my heart and make me wake up from dreaming. i'm really lucky to have you baby . i'm hoping that we can be forever . even though there will always have a problem , but we could find a way to settle it . baby promise me you wouldn't want to leave me . you will be there anywhere when i need you , when i cry , when i miss you . thanks a lot baby for all this . the memories that have left behind is always in my mind . thanks so much baby . i will love you always . and this year i'm sad tht we can't selebrate our 1 year because of the parents meeting session . bad luck sehy . but lucky i passed . now it's holiday . i'm damn bored at home . i wanna go out of this jail . please ! i'm sick and tired of just staying at home . heesh . but at least there's someone is by my side . actually i'm am so pity of you just standing . but at least you enjoy . you have free food from my house . hehe . thanks a lot for accompany me but you still need to be standing . i really appreciate it a lot . today i dye my hair something like redish and brownish colour .wah colour so nice but too bad before open school i must colour it black back . all thanks to my hunney-bunny ku for dying my hair . hehe . I LOVE YOU HUNNEY-BUNNY KU !! =)
BABY I'M SORRY / Wednesday, May 21, 2008 @ 8:45 PM
baby i know it has been hard on you having me by your side . i always make you angry , sad . i know is all my fault . i'm the want who is at the fault . i know is not possible for yot to just spent time for me only . but really just actually i'm sad when i heard you say that you don't want to send me home because of you tired . that is why i say to you i will be going home on my own . but my heart really sad . when i'm walking , i'm crying thinking of what is going to happen . this is what i'm actually going to say to you . you are the kind of the person that always thinks of your own feelings , you don't think of others . how hurt i was or sad you just coudln't care . is it what really i get from you after sacrifising for you , even though i don't care . sometimes just because of you i try to avoid my friends just to be with you . have you ever think of others feeling ? have you ever think of a person heart that is really sad and hurt ? i think you have not because you have not feel what i feel always . you are just playing my love . you always say that you love me is that true in your heart ? did you ver asked yourself why i love you , why i care for you , why i am sacrifising for you if not others ? do you think all that ? what if one day a girl hurt your feelings and leave you behind and you really love that girls so much what do you feel ? baby i really beg you lurh to really understand each other feelings . sorry if i have hurt your feeling for what i have say . i'm just waking you up before it's too late , i don't want others to think negatively of you . we are all humans . they just can't hurt you just like that . like i say before if you have any problems , tell me maybe i can help to solve it . i may be with you always if you need me is just you sometimes playing with your mind . if you think you feel i'm just being a crap just say to my face , i may be hurt but is your feelings you just can't hold your feelings in your heart it will be hurting forever . baby i love you really deeply in my heart i think nobody can replace , but if you keeping on like this how can we be forever . we can always sort things out . i really sorry for what had happen today . apologise me baby ! i know i did wrong . if you are to punish me just punish me . it's fine with me . have a good time with your friends during th june holiday . i may not be there always with you baby . once again i'm sorry baby !!
baby i know it has been hard on you having me by your side . i always make you angry , sad . i know is all my fault . i'm the want who is at the fault . i know is not possible for yot to just spent time for me only . but really just actually i'm sad when i heard you say that you don't want to send me home because of you tired . that is why i say to you i will be going home on my own . but my heart really sad . when i'm walking , i'm crying thinking of what is going to happen . this is what i'm actually going to say to you . you are the kind of the person that always thinks of your own feelings , you don't think of others . how hurt i was or sad you just coudln't care . is it what really i get from you after sacrifising for you , even though i don't care . sometimes just because of you i try to avoid my friends just to be with you . have you ever think of others feeling ? have you ever think of a person heart that is really sad and hurt ? i think you have not because you have not feel what i feel always . you are just playing my love . you always say that you love me is that true in your heart ? did you ver asked yourself why i love you , why i care for you , why i am sacrifising for you if not others ? do you think all that ? what if one day a girl hurt your feelings and leave you behind and you really love that girls so much what do you feel ? baby i really beg you lurh to really understand each other feelings . sorry if i have hurt your feeling for what i have say . i'm just waking you up before it's too late , i don't want others to think negatively of you . we are all humans . they just can't hurt you just like that . like i say before if you have any problems , tell me maybe i can help to solve it . i may be with you always if you need me is just you sometimes playing with your mind . if you think you feel i'm just being a crap just say to my face , i may be hurt but is your feelings you just can't hold your feelings in your heart it will be hurting forever . baby i love you really deeply in my heart i think nobody can replace , but if you keeping on like this how can we be forever . we can always sort things out . i really sorry for what had happen today . apologise me baby ! i know i did wrong . if you are to punish me just punish me . it's fine with me . have a good time with your friends during th june holiday . i may not be there always with you baby . once again i'm sorry baby !!
NOTE : BOIFY PLEASE READ !!! / Monday, May 19, 2008 @ 2:28 PM
last week get the result already . urgh so many fail !! i aonly get mother tounge and english pass the other subject drop sehy . this friday parents meeting . fcuk lurh ! surely die want lurh . heesh . this few day stay at home was very bored . only saturday when out to find clother then went to marina . this few days i feel sad . i think i and boify is DRIFTING APART . i don't know why ? is it because 3 days i have not see him or what ? i don't think he still remember me . every night i talk to him i feel that he just don't want to talk to me is a waste of time . i miss him as much as i can . but does he miss me . i kept asking does he remember me ? does he miss me ? does he thinks of me everytime ? i know the few days i can't get out of the house . i think he always thinks of his friend than me . what is more than his friend , his bike nad his bed . i'm not the want who he want to thinks . everyday i will cry thinking of him . why he has changed . this friday is gonna be our 1 year anniversary . i really hoep tht he can BE MORE SERIOUS IN OUR RELATIONSHIP . i just don't want to fight over a small matter lurh boify . please i really beg you baby ! i don't want to LOSE YOU just over a small matter ! baby i love you as how much i know you love me . but if it continue like this i can't sure that you really love me baby . please let me know that you really love me and you want to be with me forever . CN ? baby i will love you till i can . =) if you don't understand what am i talking about feel free to ask me . i know u have not understand me fully enough . i think now is the time for a serious relationship in us .
last week get the result already . urgh so many fail !! i aonly get mother tounge and english pass the other subject drop sehy . this friday parents meeting . fcuk lurh ! surely die want lurh . heesh . this few day stay at home was very bored . only saturday when out to find clother then went to marina . this few days i feel sad . i think i and boify is DRIFTING APART . i don't know why ? is it because 3 days i have not see him or what ? i don't think he still remember me . every night i talk to him i feel that he just don't want to talk to me is a waste of time . i miss him as much as i can . but does he miss me . i kept asking does he remember me ? does he miss me ? does he thinks of me everytime ? i know the few days i can't get out of the house . i think he always thinks of his friend than me . what is more than his friend , his bike nad his bed . i'm not the want who he want to thinks . everyday i will cry thinking of him . why he has changed . this friday is gonna be our 1 year anniversary . i really hoep tht he can BE MORE SERIOUS IN OUR RELATIONSHIP . i just don't want to fight over a small matter lurh boify . please i really beg you baby ! i don't want to LOSE YOU just over a small matter ! baby i love you as how much i know you love me . but if it continue like this i can't sure that you really love me baby . please let me know that you really love me and you want to be with me forever . CN ? baby i will love you till i can . =) if you don't understand what am i talking about feel free to ask me . i know u have not understand me fully enough . i think now is the time for a serious relationship in us .
WHEN YOU LOOK ME IN THE
EYESOh, yeah, oh, yeahIf the heart is always searching Can you ever find a home? I've been looking for that someoneI never make it on my ownDreams can't take The place of loving you There's gotta be a million reasons Why it's trueWhen you look me in the eyes And tell me that you love me Everything's alright When you're right here by my sideWhen you look me in the eyes I catch a glimpse of heaven I find my paradise When you look me in the eyesHow long will I be waiting To be with you again? I'm gonna tell you that I love you In the best way that I canI can't take a day without you here You're the light that make my darkness disappearWhen you look me in the eyes And tell me that you love me Everything's alright When you're right here by my sideWhen you look me in the eyes I catch a glimpse of heaven I find my paradise When you look me in the eyesMovin' on, I start to realize I can reach my tomorrow I can hold my head up high And it's all because you're by my sideWhen you look me in the eyes And tell me that you love me Everything's alright When you're right here by my sideWhen I hold you in my arms I know that it's forever I just got to let you know I never wanna let you go'Cause when you look me in the eyes And tell me that you love me Everything's alright When you're right here by my sideWhen you look me in the eyes I catch a glimpse of heaven Oh, I find my paradise When you look me in the eyes, oh, yeah, ahNOTE : A SONG FOR YOU BOIFY =)
/ Wednesday, May 14, 2008 @ 9:38 PM
actually i don't want to write but for boify sake it's oke lurh . today was fun . hee . morning afiq and boify came to my hse to see movei . afiq fry hot dog then we eat . hehe . at about 9 something we went to the pm to eat breakfast at mac . yummy ! after that we went to block shoppin at 624 . an then we saw a haro lurh sehy . afiq keep pestering boifyto get tht bike . haha . then boify agreed . we went to yat hose to get my bike then went back to bari house get things . his mother invite to come in but i don't want . boify then keep pulling me to go inside i give -up and went inside . sit on his bed . at about 15 min we came out and went to that block again . afiq say tht i must look on the right and he look at the left so i'm watching for people to come . haha . then when got somebody going out we quickly run upstairs . then i think boify was CRAZY . he kept laughing . but thth was CUTE of him . hehe . then we got the bike and when down when back to bari house i go lie down at boify bed . it was very nice . haha . i like his BED ! then his mother talk with me having a cht . his house was FUN lurh sehy . his mum say tht i am welcome anytime i want to come . hehe . wee ! i got to spent my time more with bdk-bdk hardcourt and boify lurh sehy . then we came down about 2 plus . play football at about 4 something i went home . boify ouh boify i MISS your HUG lurh sehy =) note for boify : 1 week 2 days more baby =) . LOVE YOU ! =)
actually i don't want to write but for boify sake it's oke lurh . today was fun . hee . morning afiq and boify came to my hse to see movei . afiq fry hot dog then we eat . hehe . at about 9 something we went to the pm to eat breakfast at mac . yummy ! after that we went to block shoppin at 624 . an then we saw a haro lurh sehy . afiq keep pestering boifyto get tht bike . haha . then boify agreed . we went to yat hose to get my bike then went back to bari house get things . his mother invite to come in but i don't want . boify then keep pulling me to go inside i give -up and went inside . sit on his bed . at about 15 min we came out and went to that block again . afiq say tht i must look on the right and he look at the left so i'm watching for people to come . haha . then when got somebody going out we quickly run upstairs . then i think boify was CRAZY . he kept laughing . but thth was CUTE of him . hehe . then we got the bike and when down when back to bari house i go lie down at boify bed . it was very nice . haha . i like his BED ! then his mother talk with me having a cht . his house was FUN lurh sehy . his mum say tht i am welcome anytime i want to come . hehe . wee ! i got to spent my time more with bdk-bdk hardcourt and boify lurh sehy . then we came down about 2 plus . play football at about 4 something i went home . boify ouh boify i MISS your HUG lurh sehy =) note for boify : 1 week 2 days more baby =) . LOVE YOU ! =)
SATURDAY , SUNDAY , MONDAY / Tuesday, May 13, 2008 @ 8:22 PM
so many things to talk about today ! on the saturday when to esplanade to see a show called titian singapore-malaysia . the performances was quite good . i enjoy it ! there were maiya rahman , jaclyn victor , dayang camelia , haziq and more . ouh HAZIQ was HANDSOME GILER !! i love his voice . the show ended at about 10 . after that we went to suntec city to find food but too bad some of the shop was closing . then my father drive to railway station . i eat rice with some other dishes . after that went home . so tired that day , but it was fun . hehe . here are the pictures of nonsense haha . nothing to do in the car .
on monday . the last paper art ! haha . it was fun lurh sehy . on that day itself we went back home early the paper ended at 10 . wohoo ! before mon . i plan with my boify to went to jrg east to take neoprints . and he agreed ! wee . fun lurh oi ! he got say he wanted to make a ez-link card but his mother have no money . too bad lurh . we took neoprints and shit we are out off time to edit the pic . so sad sehy but nice2 neoprints . then we went to eat at the kfc . i really enjoy that day . thakns so much for spending the time with me ! and after that we went back home takin 99 bus . haha i was sleeping and boify was very concern he puts his hand around my neck so i don't get hurt . aww ! touching .it was so SWEET of him =) pictures !pictures !
so many things to talk about today ! on the saturday when to esplanade to see a show called titian singapore-malaysia . the performances was quite good . i enjoy it ! there were maiya rahman , jaclyn victor , dayang camelia , haziq and more . ouh HAZIQ was HANDSOME GILER !! i love his voice . the show ended at about 10 . after that we went to suntec city to find food but too bad some of the shop was closing . then my father drive to railway station . i eat rice with some other dishes . after that went home . so tired that day , but it was fun . hehe . here are the pictures of nonsense haha . nothing to do in the car .
on the sunday . as usual morning go madrasah . then went back . then father and mother go to the taman jurong shoppin mall to buy water and food . actaully i feel that we wanted to go somewhere but i couldn't care . after that we went to eas coast haha . i though i don't have any clothes lucky i have a shirt inside and a skinny jeans . and my mother brought extra clothes to change for a swim . there was many people . is not only my family my auntie , uncle , abg sedare and adq sedare were there too . enjoy siaa at there . was a lot of fun ! after that we went to jp . to look for shoes . i bought a CROWN shoes ! hehe . nice2 .then we went to pizza hut to eat . yummy . as usual i will always eat my lasange . i will not miss it . hehe pictures will come away .
on monday . the last paper art ! haha . it was fun lurh sehy . on that day itself we went back home early the paper ended at 10 . wohoo ! before mon . i plan with my boify to went to jrg east to take neoprints . and he agreed ! wee . fun lurh oi ! he got say he wanted to make a ez-link card but his mother have no money . too bad lurh . we took neoprints and shit we are out off time to edit the pic . so sad sehy but nice2 neoprints . then we went to eat at the kfc . i really enjoy that day . thakns so much for spending the time with me ! and after that we went back home takin 99 bus . haha i was sleeping and boify was very concern he puts his hand around my neck so i don't get hurt . aww ! touching .it was so SWEET of him =) pictures !pictures !
HAVING FUN !! / Friday, May 9, 2008 @ 8:39 PM
today exam was very difficult sehy . first was the design and technology . i was like fucking siah don't know hoew to draw . i just draw anyhow i can . next was history . i was having a headache when doing that paper . thinking and thinking couldn't get any answer . i think i'm gonna fail for this two paper sehy . today exam ended at 11.45 so early . after that i , boify , afiq , hairi and aj when to hardcourt to play football . hehe . yea2 it was really fun indeed . we all was very hungry so boify take the initiative to bring us food . that was so SWEET of him . THAKNS BOIFY ! eat rice and chicken . it was yummy . but after eating i was still hungry . haha .[mkn tk bace bismillah kepe].today i took two match . one on one. first with boify . he got to score first and me . he won me sehy !! 2-1 . but when i get to match with afiq . yea i win him 5-2 . haha . i have nothing to do that was why i play football . it was really fun . hehe . at about two plus aj when home so afiq sent him to the bustop . after afiq came back , he ask this ws the conversation .
afiq:kau ada charger sony ericsson?
boify:tkd family aku maner pki sony .
me :ada pe yg usb cable .(i was wrong i thought afiq asking for usb haha)
boify:mane ada hilang lurh .
me:but i thougt i give u what .
afiq:faz , kau pki sony kn mesti kau ada pe
me:ada . alarh tpi kt bilik mak aku arh lock .
afiq:umah kau ada org?
me:tkd asl ?
afiq:gy umah kau urh tgk tv , relak2 , mkn . boleh ?
me:confirm pe korg nk gy ?
afiq:arh2
boify:jom arh
me:yerlurh2
hairi:faz umah kau ada telor ?
me:ada asl ?
hairi:nanti aku nk goreng arh .
me:oke2
then we walked off to when to my house . it was noisy . haha . but fun lurh sehy . no because having boys in the house but was great at least i have acompany sehy . hairi was cooking in the kitchen . frying egg and hotdogs . thanks hairi ! then afiq saw ah-long dvd . he ask me to play the dvd . we all was laughing all the way . story was really funny . haha . at about 4.30 they went home . alarh tht time i was lonely . on monday they planned to come agian .after they went off i was bored . call boify but boify say that his pp8 was low so cnt talk .hang-up the phone and i get out of the house go shop . i was planning to top-up for him but cnt . next mth the line will open . i was sad . when home then watch television . PS; I MISS BOIFY LURH !
today exam was very difficult sehy . first was the design and technology . i was like fucking siah don't know hoew to draw . i just draw anyhow i can . next was history . i was having a headache when doing that paper . thinking and thinking couldn't get any answer . i think i'm gonna fail for this two paper sehy . today exam ended at 11.45 so early . after that i , boify , afiq , hairi and aj when to hardcourt to play football . hehe . yea2 it was really fun indeed . we all was very hungry so boify take the initiative to bring us food . that was so SWEET of him . THAKNS BOIFY ! eat rice and chicken . it was yummy . but after eating i was still hungry . haha .[mkn tk bace bismillah kepe].today i took two match . one on one. first with boify . he got to score first and me . he won me sehy !! 2-1 . but when i get to match with afiq . yea i win him 5-2 . haha . i have nothing to do that was why i play football . it was really fun . hehe . at about two plus aj when home so afiq sent him to the bustop . after afiq came back , he ask this ws the conversation .
afiq:kau ada charger sony ericsson?
boify:tkd family aku maner pki sony .
me :ada pe yg usb cable .(i was wrong i thought afiq asking for usb haha)
boify:mane ada hilang lurh .
me:but i thougt i give u what .
afiq:faz , kau pki sony kn mesti kau ada pe
me:ada . alarh tpi kt bilik mak aku arh lock .
afiq:umah kau ada org?
me:tkd asl ?
afiq:gy umah kau urh tgk tv , relak2 , mkn . boleh ?
me:confirm pe korg nk gy ?
afiq:arh2
boify:jom arh
me:yerlurh2
hairi:faz umah kau ada telor ?
me:ada asl ?
hairi:nanti aku nk goreng arh .
me:oke2
then we walked off to when to my house . it was noisy . haha . but fun lurh sehy . no because having boys in the house but was great at least i have acompany sehy . hairi was cooking in the kitchen . frying egg and hotdogs . thanks hairi ! then afiq saw ah-long dvd . he ask me to play the dvd . we all was laughing all the way . story was really funny . haha . at about 4.30 they went home . alarh tht time i was lonely . on monday they planned to come agian .after they went off i was bored . call boify but boify say that his pp8 was low so cnt talk .hang-up the phone and i get out of the house go shop . i was planning to top-up for him but cnt . next mth the line will open . i was sad . when home then watch television . PS; I MISS BOIFY LURH !
A STORY ; / Thursday, May 8, 2008 @ 9:25 PM
yea , left 3 more exam to go and finish . at last i have finish my job as a student . i think i can do well . miss lee say tht i have done well for my sci . i don't is it true or not . scared tht she bluff me sehy .tomorrow having paper history and dnt . i hate dnt . ! maths paper was very though siah . i cnt think . last question for maths is 6 marks if i didn't get it correct gurantee fail want urh . stress siah do maths . just now was geography . i try my best to give a ans for each question . but i don't think i cn pass my geo paper . confirm fail want urh . english and mother tounge was quite okae . sci was okae too but a little bit difficult . but at least i hve done my best for each paper . lucky for me studying very hard . alarh bored sehy aishah nvr come to skwel . she kena chicken-chiken sickness lerr . i'm lonely siah at skwel even though there's boify . i miss her lurh oii ! on the mon i fought with boify . sad siah me . can't tell sorry .then yesterday also fought . does any girl will be JEALOUS if any OTHER girl say LOVE to ur BOIFY ?? stupid right . the msg say tht , kambeng kt sini nk ckp yg dier syg kamu " . he got say tht kambeng it's him . i like keeping reading tht msg . so i say tht this girl say she love you and he say wht HE DON'T KNOW !! wtf sak i say in my heart .
yea , left 3 more exam to go and finish . at last i have finish my job as a student . i think i can do well . miss lee say tht i have done well for my sci . i don't is it true or not . scared tht she bluff me sehy .tomorrow having paper history and dnt . i hate dnt . ! maths paper was very though siah . i cnt think . last question for maths is 6 marks if i didn't get it correct gurantee fail want urh . stress siah do maths . just now was geography . i try my best to give a ans for each question . but i don't think i cn pass my geo paper . confirm fail want urh . english and mother tounge was quite okae . sci was okae too but a little bit difficult . but at least i hve done my best for each paper . lucky for me studying very hard . alarh bored sehy aishah nvr come to skwel . she kena chicken-chiken sickness lerr . i'm lonely siah at skwel even though there's boify . i miss her lurh oii ! on the mon i fought with boify . sad siah me . can't tell sorry .then yesterday also fought . does any girl will be JEALOUS if any OTHER girl say LOVE to ur BOIFY ?? stupid right . the msg say tht , kambeng kt sini nk ckp yg dier syg kamu " . he got say tht kambeng it's him . i like keeping reading tht msg . so i say tht this girl say she love you and he say wht HE DON'T KNOW !! wtf sak i say in my heart .
